A Sorry Letter For My Baby

I am so sorry if it really breaks your heart

For I am not perfect but trying to make it the most

I am so sorry if I have no enough time for you

For I just spent it more for work but less for you

I am sorry for due to stress I yell most of the time

But I really didn’t mean to do it, and I know it makes you feel bad.

You know how much I love you, and do really care for you

For I am more willing to give up my career

In exchanged of being a full time Mama and to take care with you

But it’s not so easy to think that quickly why I choose to be wiser

For as long as I believe that I can still manage my time and temper.

I yell and shout when you are not getting the point as commanded,

But you still hug and kiss me, no matter how I’m crazy

You even showed me sweetness that sometimes craziness and tricks

As it keep us giggles and you make it more fun and enjoyable.

Sometimes I forgot, that you are only a little one

Still needs cuddling and should be showered more time than the usual

You may not mention it for words, but we definitely realize it by your actions.

And now as I promise, to never yell you anymore

Because of the truth and pain

That’s inside of me, where I can’t deny the feeling

The feeling of a mother that has lack of time to give in a daughter like you

Because every time you say I love you, the more I realize everything

And as my tears started to fall, I realized all my mistakes.

I never wanted to hurt you, as I am just your mother

All I wanted is to show you are being loved by me

And do my best as your Mom.

I love you my daughter.

Love, Mama