Friday, December 27, 2013

A Sorry Letter For My Baby





I am so sorry if it really breaks your heart
For I am not perfect but trying to make it the most
I am so sorry if I have no enough time for you
For I just spent it more for work but less for you
I am sorry for due to stress I yell most of the time
But I really didn’t mean to do it, and I know it makes you feel bad.

You know how much I love you, and do really care for you
For I am more willing to give up my career
In exchanged of being a full time Mama and to take care with you
But it’s not so easy to think that quickly why I choose to be wiser
For as long as I believe that I can still manage my time and temper.

I yell and shout when you are not getting the point as commanded,
But you still hug and kiss me, no matter how I’m crazy
You even showed me sweetness that sometimes craziness and tricks
As it keep us giggles and you make it more fun and enjoyable.
Sometimes I forgot, that you are only a little one
Still needs cuddling and should be showered more time than the usual
You may not mention it for words, but we definitely realize it by your actions.

And now as I promise, to never yell you anymore
Because of the truth and pain
That’s inside of me, where I can’t deny the feeling
The feeling of a mother that has lack of time to give in a daughter like you
Because every time you say I love you, the more I realize everything
And as my tears started to fall, I realized all my mistakes.
I never wanted to hurt you, as I am just your mother
All I wanted is to show you are being loved by me
And do my best as your Mom.

I love you my daughter.

Love, Mama

Friday, November 15, 2013

The Importance of Faith and Prayers for Salvation


     We are all created by Almighty God. These are all his creations and we have no rights to complaint or even questioning when the time comes. What’s happening right now is a “CALL” and warning because we forgotten to thanks in every blessing we received in our daily lives. We forgot to pray most especially an “Act of Contrition”, then confess our sins and receives communion. We always had excuses why we never oblige to go to Church every Sundays, although in every parties celebrated by some friends we are always present enjoying time together. 


     Why don’t we do reflection and embrace solemnity.  The solution could be found by our own realization through deep searching of our own desire. 


     It’s not too late, for let us all realize, reflect and say sorry for we have sinned, and bring back our faith to our Lord. 


     At anytime and in any moment we cannot tell as stated in the Holy Bible. 

Let us all be prepared and the Lord will save whoever trust and have strong faith in HIM.


As what “MATTHEW 24 STATED”


New King James Version (NKJV)
 
"Jesus Predicts the Destruction of the Temple"


24 Then Jesus went out and departed from the temple, and His disciples came up to show Him the buildings of the temple. 2 And Jesus said to them, “Do you not see all these things? Assuredly, I say to you, not one stone shall be left here upon another, that shall not be thrown down.”
The Signs of the Times and the End of the Age

3 Now as He sat on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to Him privately, saying, “Tell us, when will these things be? And what will be the sign of Your coming, and of the end of the age?”

4 And Jesus answered and said to them: “Take heed that no one deceives you. 5 For many will come in My name, saying, ‘I am the Christ,’ and will deceive many. 6 And you will hear of wars and rumors of wars. See that you are not troubled; for all[a] these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet. 7 For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. And there will be famines, pestilences,[b] and earthquakes in various places. 8 All these are the beginning of sorrows.

9 “Then they will deliver you up to tribulation and kill you, and you will be hated by all nations for My name’s sake. 10 And then many will be offended, will betray one another, and will hate one another. 11 Then many false prophets will rise up and deceive many. 12 And because lawlessness will abound, the love of many will grow cold. 13 But he who endures to the end shall be saved. 14 And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in all the world as a witness to all the nations, and then the end will come.
The Great Tribulation

15 “Therefore when you see the ‘abomination of desolation,’[c] spoken of by Daniel the prophet, standing in the holy place” (whoever reads, let him understand), 16 “then let those who are in Judea flee to the mountains. 17 Let him who is on the housetop not go down to take anything out of his house. 18 And let him who is in the field not go back to get his clothes. 19 But woe to those who are pregnant and to those who are nursing babies in those days! 20 And pray that your flight may not be in winter or on the Sabbath. 21 For then there will be great tribulation, such as has not been since the beginning of the world until this time, no, nor ever shall be. 22 And unless those days were shortened, no flesh would be saved; but for the elect’s sake those days will be shortened.

23 “Then if anyone says to you, ‘Look, here is the Christ!’ or ‘There!’ do not believe it. 24 For false christs and false prophets will rise and show great signs and wonders to deceive, if possible, even the elect. 25 See, I have told you beforehand.

26 “Therefore if they say to you, ‘Look, He is in the desert!’ do not go out; or ‘Look, He is in the inner rooms!’ do not believe it. 27 For as the lightning comes from the east and flashes to the west, so also will the coming of the Son of Man be. 28 For wherever the carcass is, there the eagles will be gathered together.
The Coming of the Son of Man

29 “Immediately after the tribulation of those days the sun will be darkened, and the moon will not give its light; the stars will fall from heaven, and the powers of the heavens will be shaken. 30 Then the sign of the Son of Man will appear in heaven, and then all the tribes of the earth will mourn, and they will see the Son of Man coming on the clouds of heaven with power and great glory. 31 And He will send His angels with a great sound of a trumpet, and they will gather together His elect from the four winds, from one end of heaven to the other.
The Parable of the Fig Tree

32 “Now learn this parable from the fig tree: When its branch has already become tender and puts forth leaves, you know that summer is near. 33 So you also, when you see all these things, know that it[d] is near—at the doors! 34 Assuredly, I say to you, this generation will by no means pass away till all these things take place. 35 Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will by no means pass away.
No One Knows the Day or Hour

36 “But of that day and hour no one knows, not even the angels of heaven,[e] but My Father only. 37 But as the days of Noah were, so also will the coming of the Son of Man be. 38 For as in the days before the flood, they were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, until the day that Noah entered the ark, 39 and did not know until the flood came and took them all away, so also will the coming of the Son of Man be. 40 Then two men will be in the field: one will be taken and the other left. 41 Two women will be grinding at the mill: one will be taken and the other left. 42 Watch therefore, for you do not know what hour[f] your Lord is coming. 43 But know this, that if the master of the house had known what hour the thief would come, he would have watched and not allowed his house to be broken into. 44 Therefore you also be ready, for the Son of Man is coming at an hour you do not expect.
The Faithful Servant and the Evil Servant

45 “Who then is a faithful and wise servant, whom his master made ruler over his household, to give them food in due season? 46 Blessed is that servant whom his master, when he comes, will find so doing. 47 Assuredly, I say to you that he will make him ruler over all his goods. 48 But if that evil servant says in his heart, ‘My master is delaying his coming,’[g] 49 and begins to beat his fellow servants, and to eat and drink with the drunkards, 50 the master of that servant will come on a day when he is not looking for him and at an hour that he is not aware of, 51 and will cut him in two and appoint him his portion with the hypocrites. There shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.



Saturday, November 9, 2013

When I became a MoM


Who am I? 


I was an ordinary and easy go lucky person then, contented, satisfied of what I have in the present, wasting time and money to useless wants that’s not important in my life. I never anticipate what might be my future is because I just rely on what I see, what’s currently going in the present. But….


Everything’s changed when I became a mother. I never realize that my perception would change just for the sake of my child and it all started that way. I have learned how to value and appreciate simple things and happiness and embrace the motherhood capability, just to have knowledge in taking care of my child, by dividing time and effort to show how much she’s being loved and make her feel so precious even though I am a working mom.  It’s crazy because just a simple and common problems, for me it’s complicated. You know, I even get mad when I see a tiny insect bite on my child’s skin. I get panic sometimes when I heard unusual sounds, the way she cries, coughs and vomits, especially those times she got sick. 


Hence, experiencing those sleepless nights is challenging but of course very rewarding when I see a smile of my child the way I look at her angelic face. It really melts my heart and as if I never had any problems at all.


It’s unbelievable! But I surpass all of it with all my courage that’s full of inspirations and lessons learned from those experiences.   


Now I understood that, being a mother was not as simple as I know. Because you will do all your best for the sake of your child and continue to plan and set up your goal to secure your child’s future, in exchanged, you also have to sacrifice your own interests. 


Maybe, I rather base my character just like a HEN, why? Because as you notice, a hen never leave their chicks, wherever their chicks going, they keep on guiding, comforting and over protective when their chicks are still young. Same as me, but when the time comes that my daughter ask her independence, I will never think twice, when I believe that she could possibly stand on her own.

I am now an open-minded and believing that learning and trying to search more knowledge to be applied to yourself is a great way of motivation to improve your confidence and skills, as this is the key for your success and to be inherited to your children someday.


That’s how motherhood influenced and changed me a lot of being who I am before.